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I guess I never knew you at all

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We’ve known each other for tens years
But now my eyes hurt from all the tears
Just because I went out with someone else
You tossed my life onto the shelf

It was just a night out with some friends
The morning after you send me a text
Telling me why I went out with them
I don’t know why your saying this now

A week went by
Then two and three
You never reply to my texts
Why is this happening to me

We were friends for ten years long
Yet I feel like I never knew you at all
If this is all it takes to break our bond
Then I want nothing to do with this I’m gone

I remember all the years
I remember all the months
Each day I spent with you
I can name each one
Through and through

The time we walked down to a distanced place
The hour where I lost a relative and had tears on my face
The moment where I met your boyfriends before you found the right one
The time where we had such fun

But as time grew
The moments we spent
Became ever shorter
And then less and less

Every text sent
You gave a reply
“Not today”
“Maybe next time”
“Hanging out with the boyfriend tonight”

I don’t blame the boyfriend
I don’t blame you
I’m not that petty
You should know that too

I just wanted a night where I wasn’t the third wheel
A night where I’m not the odd one out
To have fun and not worry about this and that
Or the one on call and heel
Is that too much to ask

Being the only one
Among the couples and the flirts
Only being called out when someone you don’t like is there
I’m not going on short notice
I’m out

If this is all it takes to break our bond
Then I guess I never knew you
Not once
Not at all

I still feel angry
And at times sad
Wondering where I went wrong
Did I do something bad

But I’m not going to beat myself up about it
I’m not going to at all
I mean it when I say it
“I’ve had enough”

Sure you can give me a text
Give me a call
But I don’t think I can trust you
Not yet or not at all

I knew you for ten years
We’ve been through it all
But I guess I never knew you
Not then and not at all
Been going through some things lately with a friend
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Haunter-360's avatar
Wow, can really feel the emotion behind this one, good work.
Hope it all turns out for the better.